Lynn Manwar

Archive for March, 2012

Lynn’s Comments: It was 2 weeks ago on Sunday, February 19th, 2012 that I received a few compliments from a man.  He called me both pretty and my photo beautiful.   On the same day, I was actually supposed to go on a date for dinner, but my date didn’t follow up and I was somewhat relieved. My relief came from having to not go through the process of putting on a wig for a date for the first time.

Earlier that week on Monday, February 13th, 2012, I decided to get my hair shaved off with the help of the neighbour.  Luckily I had friends over who brought Chinese food for dinner, their bouncing new baby boy and graciously agreed to videotape my experience.  It was so nice to have support on that monumental day.  I had been teary eyed on the weekend, as I noticed clumps of hair falling out.  I love my hair so much and it was tough to part with it.

My hair loss was caused by the start of Chemotherapy treatment a few weeks prior.  Five days before Christmas on December 20th, 2011, I was told I had a lump in my right breast and was booked for a meeting with the surgeon on December 23rd, 2012.  Meeting the surgeon and finding out my options was one of the most difficult meetings of my life.  I left that meeting, went to Gilda’s Club, received a Christmas gift and had brunch.  I then went to St. Michael’s Cathedral, lay before the aisle and cried my eyes out.   It took me almost 2 months before I had a crying moment again,  and so on Saturday, February 18th, 2012, I lay in my bed and cried about the loss of my hair and the change of my image.

I do feel God was watching over me on Sunday, February 19th, 2012, because even though my date didn’t happen, I received unexpected compliments from a man I hardly knew.  I wasn’t feeling so pretty that day, but when he called me “pretty” and my photo “beautiful”, his words not only touched my heart, but my soul.  I do believe it was God’s way of  saying Lynn, “you’ll be okay” and to get me to stop crying over my temporary situation. What I really needed that day was a “compliment”, not a “date”.  I do feel so ever grateful to have received those words of affirmation.  There’s a book I read several years ago called “The Five Love Languages“ by Gary Chapman and the first love language is listed as “Words of Affirmation”. I highly recommend you read the book on how to express heartfelt commitment to your mate— it will transform the way you look at relationships. Watch this introduction from Gary Chapman:

I am not sure how my dating life will progress in the next few months, but I do feel confident to go on dates and continue to put myself out there.  After all, in about 3 months, my hair will start to grow back.  I will have May and June 2012 to go on many dates.  I do have surgery booked in the early summer and radiation treatment.  As of September 2012, all these treatments will be behind me.  Hopefully, I will meet a man who will know and recognize that we are essentially spiritual beings in a physical body, and that what I have to go through the next few months, is all but a temporary process. I will start visualizing a new man enjoying time with me in my new pad in Etobicoke and having romantic walks by the waterfront. I can see it and feel it!! Ah, it’s so great to experience the future now in my mind

Many people get scared by the word “cancer”, but all it is, is a great opportunity for spiritual growth.  I’ve learned that when you fear cancer, it controls you, but when you embrace it, it sets you FREE!  I am FREE as a bird, loving my life, and the people in it!  I have much time left on this planet and look forward to sharing my Joy of Life with you all!  I am smiling now and hope you are too ;-D